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Elissa Lavoie
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Sup? I'm Elissa, yet another broke college kid. Studying Early Childhood to be a Kindergarten teacher.
Also I post art.
Usually based on what I'm obsessing over at the time.
Ain't the best, not even close, but if I like it, it goes here.

Current Residence: CT
Interests
Yeah, that's all there really is to say.
I'm doing better. Much better. Emotionally at least.
Physically, I can still tell my health is declining. My heartburn is worse, migraines more often and more intense. I've never felt stomach pain like this, but aside from all of that, I've never been happier.
I don't know if it is due to being medicated, or what.
I'm laughing again, smiling for no reason. Socializing. All things I was forced to do unless I was with L or E (don't ask, you're not getting their names).
I'd like to say it's because I don't have to worry anymore about which friend is going to the hospital this month, but I know it'll only put me deeper in shit than I already appear to be in.
I've lost friends this semester, for reasons I still don't recall or understand, but I've had worse let downs, and I know I'll survive. Hell, I've lost friends before, watched as they ignored me, cut off all contact with me, simply because I was forced to move. But you know what? I got over it. Sure, I'd like to talk to them again, but I know it won't happen, and I'm fine with that.
At least now I can attempt conversation, and be the bigger person because I'm not completely ignoring someone, or putting my nose up when they walk by.
Yes, I see what's going on. I know what's being said behind my back.
It might not look like I have friends anymore, but I do, and as a result, I have ears where no one thinks I do.
I won't lie, it hurt at first. My face leaked many different fluids, and I spent a week wondering why someone would believe a lie like that. No, I'm not going into what the lie was, simply because like I said earlier, I don't need to be deeper in shit.
But in my opinion, and to my recollection, it was a lie nonetheless.
Now, normally I'm not one to have hope for any friend who betrays me. Once they scorn me, I avoid them like a plague. I haven't done that. In fact, in a way, I have hope that we will be friends some day. There is a recess in my mind, growing larger every day that says it isn't going to happen, but there's still hope there, and for the first time in a long time, I have optimistic feelings. Unrealistic, but optimistic.
Maybe it's because I'm medicated. Maybe it's because I don't want to believe I've lost yet another friend. I mean, she's usually pretty quick to block those who get on her nerves on Facebook or whatever, and she hasn't done that, so maybe she's hoping too?
I don't know.
I'm still in the mindset that i don't want to know.
But for now, that's okay.

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WhispersInTheMirror Featured By Owner Dec 29, 2013  Student Digital Artist
:iconwantdannyphantomplz:Thank you for the fave on my Danny Phantom Fan-Art --- >fav.me/d5yucaoDP Heart :icondannylaplz:
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BajecznaMirra Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2013  Hobbyist Artist
thanks you for the Fav :hug:
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tallernu Featured By Owner Sep 25, 2013
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Habotre Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
thanks for the :+fav: XDD!
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HazukashiiDucks Featured By Owner Jan 13, 2013  Student Digital Artist
:iconblushplz: thank you so much for the fav darling !!! :
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MagicalPudding Featured By Owner Jan 6, 2013
Thank you for the favorite! :iconaawplz:
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SuJuice Featured By Owner Dec 28, 2012  Student Digital Artist
Thanks for the favs ;v;
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Annakotsu Featured By Owner Nov 7, 2012  Student Digital Artist
Thank you ever so much for the favvvv :heart: :iconloveloveplz: :iconmonkeyloveplz: :heart:
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aphaire Featured By Owner Oct 21, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
thank you so much for the fave! i really appreciate it :D
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ColacatintheHat Featured By Owner Oct 3, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you for the favourite! :heart: : D

(Sorry this took so long it's taking me a while to thank everyone ^^;)
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